In Awe of This 'Whole New Universe' With Colored Eyes (Wink to My Reflection)

The best insight I’ve gotten this fall so far? It’s this deep, almost surreal feeling of being in awe of the girl I get to know more and more every day. It’s one thing to reflect on your growth, and it’s a whole different experience to actually feel that growth, to witness it unfold in real-time, day by day. I’ve talked before about the “suit” we wear in life—if you haven’t yet, go check out my post Why Even Coach and Not a Single Word About My Monstera? for more on that—but this experience? This is something else.

It’s like, instead of just reflecting on how my day went, I’m watching this girl—this version of myself—learning to walk, learning to navigate, learning to embrace all the chaos and beauty that life throws at her. There’s something so humbling and inspiring about stepping back and observing yourself, not as a critic, but as a curious observer. It’s seeing myself “learning to walk” in a metaphorical sense, and I’m kind of in awe of it.

I used to think that self-reflection was all about looking back and analyzing—what went right, what went wrong, what could I have done better? But this goes deeper. It’s about watching myself grow, live, stumble, and get back up again. It’s about appreciating the process in real-time, not just in hindsight.

Every day, I’m realizing more and more that the “suit” I wear—this collection of thoughts, feelings, and habits that shape who I am—is something I’m continually working on, mending, and, yes, even re-designing. The suit isn’t fixed. It’s flexible. It changes as I change. And right now, I’m in a season of life where I can actually feel those shifts happening.

What’s wild is how this realization makes the little things feel so much more profound. Even the small victories—like pushing through a tough day or making time for a moment of stillness—feel like milestones. It's no longer just about making it through the day but about valuing who I am along the way.

This season, I’m learning to be a little more gentle, a little more curious, and a little more in awe of that girl I see in the mirror every day. She’s learning, growing, stumbling, and thriving all at once—and it’s a privilege to watch it unfold.

So if you’re in the middle of your own growth, whatever that looks like for you, remember to step back sometimes. Watch yourself “learning to walk” through life’s ups and downs. And when you do, take a moment to feel a little bit of awe for the person you’re becoming. Trust me, it’s worth it.

Pats,
Anya 🫰🏽